Who Says

So I've been busy and haven't had a lot of time to post a blog.  Well nothing exciting has happened to me since the last time I posted.  I've had some bad days lately...like yesterday morning I woke up for school and felt like I gained so much weight.  I felt so disgusting that I didn't even want to move.  I laid in bed forever and all these thoughts we're going through my head.  I finally forced myself to get up and go to school.  I did alright with eating that day, I really had to force myself to eat.  I wish all these thoughts and feelings would just go away.  It pisses me off that I have to fight with food all the time.  Plus I'm so constipated (not to be gross or anything) which makes me feel huge.  All I want to do is take a laxative, I've been so tempted to take one but I know if I take one I will just become addicted again.  My boyfriend who has been supportive told me if I really cared about him I wouldn't go back to my old habits and that if I did go down that path again he couldn't see us making it.  That scares me and I know I have to keep trying.


But on a GOOD note: today has been a pretty good day for me.  I went to the gym this morning, came home and worked on a project (I got 3/4 of it done!), had lunch, went to work, came home and had a sandwich with a few sides and for dessert I had a snack size ice cream sandwich. Now I'm relaxing might do some hw to get ahead....AND the ravens schedule came out yesterday and we're opening against the steelers at home, gonna be a good game hopefully I end up going..def already bleedin' purple RAVENSS!!!(sorry jen, i know you're a steelers fan) My mom won a trip to virginia this waterpark place that we might  go to in june.  She also won a trip to disney we might take during my winter break next year....and what i'm most excited about is going to Mexico in July!!!! I can't waittttt :)


oh and i don't know if you guys heard the song, who says by selena gomez yet...i listen to it every day to help me get through each day. here are some of the lyrics:

You made me insecure
Told me I wasn’t good enough
But who are you to judge


I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me


You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful
Who says